Yes, I’m coming in with a BANG.

That’s what 2024 is for right?

But not the bang that blew up my brain in Extraction 2 where you can barely look away for a second bc bombs are flying, everyone’s running to god knows where, shots are firing, people are almost dying…but not really because: movie. The camera men are in cardio heaven…talking about cardio, I could definitely use some…

Spirit influence. No, it’s not my favourite thing to talk about but it seems like it’s the least spoken about.

I’m not a fan of hearsay.

So you’ll get it directly from source: every influence is SPECIFIC.

And although the intention is malevolent — it is incredibly liberating.

I grew up in a racist and homophobic household.

I was born into the middle of the Apartheid regime.

My grandfather was an officer in the SS regime, then left my Oma for a French woman it’s not lost on me that I married a half French man and our holiday home is in the region where the German officers rested and lived. Coincidence? No.)

My grandmother wanted to kill herself.

My mother drowned in alcohol.

and you’ll never guess what it is!

If there were a truth barometer in the online space, I’d want to hit the high reds.

The moment I became a mother physically, emotionally I regressed. No conscious choice in sight.

For over 10 years I stayed childlike.

My thoughts.

Beliefs.

Interactions.

The way I handled business.

My husband grew up.

We exchanged roles.

I re-enacted my childhood again.

Even though I had spend over 10 years prior “working on myself”. I worked on and saw what I wanted to see. I prided myself in having come so far without talk therapy. What a load of horseshit. Or cow dung.

Nothing cancels out the other. It’s a lie.

When I hit my first 6 figure month, I retracted. I remember feeling elated…and also feeling terror. Walking down the 25 steps to my bedroom, opening the door, seeing my husband and saying “Hey, I think I just had a 120k month”and him looking at me dumbfounded. Shocked.

And then jokingly saying “so now you don’t need me anymore”.

The funny thing about money is…it’s NEVER about money.

That one sentence took me down. Took my income down 60% the next monthbecause I chose what most spiritual entrepreneurs choose…until they become aware of it…

…this is why not ALL of your offers are selling and filling up behind the scenes.

Great strategy in content, stories and feed sells low end like crazy. Daily. These are payments that flow without Dm’s and you should be waking up to. This IS the recurring income for spiritual entrepreneurs. The show-stopping evergreens. When your clients are just receiving your work, this works and is wildly profitable.

Conversations in your Dm’s however are your 7 fig sales process where you are currently leaving hundreds of thousands of $$ on the table and out of your bank account.

These conversations lead to selling MULTIPLE offers behind the scenes and also selling offers that aren’t launching for MONTHS ahead of time.

…bc this is EXACTLY what your product suite should be doing - with NO focus on scaling UP but HORIZONTALLY.

If you rely on the collective bubble of “I just want them to come in and buy” for offers where you are INTERACTING with clients…

...what you’re really saying is:

…when the shit hits the fan (cuz let’s be REAL honest - no one is test driving around here) it’s on THEM.

My son started screaming.

Like blood curdling screaming.

I was downstairs trying to hold the baby and fill the dishwasher with our dishes. I can’t remember what we had for dinner but I remember it was dark outside. Nighttime. Not quite witching hour. He was in the bathtub. Water contrary to outdated spiritual truth is as much a conductor for the dark as it is to the light.

If you’re not commanding the energy - you will never get to choose.

Those few seconds of dead silence that nothing can fill.

I ran up the flight of concrete stairs, rushed into the bathroom with the baby on my hip and looked into his frightened big, brown eyes.

He said: “Mom, there are eyes looking at me all the time”.

I asked him where and he said: everywhere.

My heart sank.

As a trauma survivor, my mode clicked into place somewhere deep inside. Survival? I know how to.

I started commanding the energy around me.

And this ^ has created polarizing experiences for clients because no one ever tells a woman to command. My clients all feel uncomfortable with this at the beginning. Because that is still reserved for men. And then it almost becomes an addiction...because true command finally feels like authentic power. A woman in authentic power...is unfuckwithable.

I have often been called bossy, domineering, “of the dark” etc because I command my space. But when I do - things shift INSTANTLY. Command was meant to be used (not abused).

Just the other week I went into training in the astral during my dream state that required command. I was in a church close by, surrounded by crystals with a huge citrine geode crystal on my lap. That in itself was…strange because I do not work with any tools but it got ugly really quick...the crystals came as my allies because a black magician (female) started practicing human sacrifice…with a baby. This is unfortunately not uncommon.

The reason I try and avoid handshakes and physical touch…

…is because low vibrational Spirits just…hop.

And they piggy back and they feel…entitled to your energy.

9/10 clients have attachments. Fake Guides. Cords into past lives. Unclear devices, homes, work spaces…

Basic psychic readings do not factor this in.

The other night, I was astral traveling (a teaching “dream”) and I walked out of my front door into a room right off my front door. There were a whole bunch of elderly people that were having cake and tea. I shoo’ed them out. They are in the in-between, living in the astral. Let-me-sleep.

Then a homeless woman (low vibrational) Spirit tried to come in, she pushed and tried to force herself in. Definitely wasn’t Mother-Theresing that one either.

The astral is all around you right now. Your home is in the 3D but also exists with an astral body and..multiple rooms off the house. Everything has an equivalent or more…inside the astral. You are basically in the middle of creation. Potential. Co-creation. Everything you can imagine exists there 24/7 floating around you.

I wake up to see a call from my son.

He called at 6 am.

The distance between us are 20m, one flight of stairs and a few deep breath’s.

I noticed something was off before falling asleep. I felt wide awake.

I haven’t shared what happened before I went to bed. Before I saw the call.

What happened while I was blissfully creating a dessert for all of us in the kitchen as my whole family was enjoying some tv in the living room 2 steps and ten strides away.

*trigger warning SA*

I couldn’t remember it clearly. I was lying on my bed in France, propped my computer up on a cushion next to me so my shaman could see me. She told me to put a cushion just below my torso. It felt uncomfortable but what was to come would feel even more uncomfortable.

Uncomfortable to speak about.

To talk about.

To acknowledge.

I clearly can’t remember details well. I use excuses for this all the time.

This time, my excuses hid in the back closet. And the key was lying in the deep end of the pool where my kids were swimming.

While I was breathing in, she took me back.

Back to a time and place I had forgotten.

I remember standing next to my neighbours pool and her coming out of the pool house naked.

She walked with an air of nonchalance you would expect of a strong, confident 9 year old.

I was mortified.

The reason Doreen Virtue converted is not because of a spiritual awakening but because of precisely this…

The personal development and self help bubble is a billion dollar enterprise.

If you’re tired of personal or SELF development, you need to read this…

…we have all heard of her, have her tarot cards, read a book or two…she is the OG of angel talk and therapy, tarot cards and bringing New Age to the forefront (and making Hay House REALLY known…and successful)

She had an awakening where she met… Jesus and after reading a passage in the Old Testament interpreted a paragraph into “she is doing Devil’s work”.

What she was experiencing was her spiritual bypassing of the dark up until then, nothing more and nothing less.